Durango Songwriters Expo: 152 insights to my soul

nothin' comes close, to the golden coast.

checked in to the Andersen's Pea Soup INN.

Will you stop taking pictures and decide where we can EAT!!!

At the conference, my name was spelled as LYNDY BOTLER. silly,'we are not robots.'

Pea Soup Door.
Jon Butler Heaven.

Last weekend was incredible. I am still coming down from the California-high.
I learned a lot about the music industry and more importantly, about myself as a musician...get ready for some self-reflective garble.

last Friday and Saturday,
I was surrounded by many talented musicians from across the country and felt inspired by so many of them.
I had such great feedback to the songs that i shared and Doors have been opened, but do I really want to walk through...
How serious am I about this whole endeavor. Its very exciting but its also completely overwhelming. Do I want to make this my career? career is such a funny word. reer...

I loved so much of my first Durango Songwriters Expo,
but I also didn't love some of it.
What I didn't love was my attitude.
I desperately wanted to fit in with the more experienced Durango attendees. I wanted them to know that I am not just a stay at home momma who has one little cute cheesy song. But I think I came across pretentious maybe?
or maybe I AM just a stay at home momma with one cheesy song?
I am so insecure...like whoa...
i could barf from the butterflies in my belly just typing this.

Are you an over thinker? I analyze and over think everything.
I had a little chat with Trina Harmon, who is amazing.
I cried and laughed and thought maybe what she was telling me was totally bogus but a little part of me thought it was the most beautiful truth.

The whole shabang of our chat was, Just decide what it is you really want.
Once you decide, You will get there.

So What is it that I want?
I know I want to share my songs but to what extent.

Trina said it would be easy to stay in Hurricane, Utah and sing at the Peach days festival or local coffee shop but will my soul be content?
I think it would. I think...

Hmm. we'll see. Im supposed to be getting in shape for my code breaker Music video. But its easier to eat Oreos....Its EASIER. and delicious.
Do I have what it takes to dig in and do something a little more challenging?
like sit-ups?
or the House Concert in Salt Lake I've been invited too?
I hope so.
I'll keep you posted.

As for now.
I am Playing a free show with Carlie Wall this Saturday at Wing Nutz. It starts at 8:30 and think its going to be lots of fun.

Also Playing at the RENFEST at GOGO 37 on April 2nd.
and Just got Invited to Play at the Washington County Fair. yeee-haw!

Thanks for bearing with me as i try to figure myself out. i just need to stop thinking and maybe sing a song.